Pain is an unpleasant sensation that can limit a person’s capabilities and abilities to follow a daily routine. It often acts as an early warning signal to alert you that something is not right with your body.
I believe there are two types of pain, one that hurts you and one that changes you.
I have spoke in depth about the pain that changes you. The mental process that I experienced when transitioning through this whole process. Going from one way of life to another, literally overnight and the power of the mind; way beyond just the physical pain. The tears I cried in the hospital bed with the covers pulled over my head. You can’t believe you are there in that situation.
It is a grief.
It is like losing somebody – you wake up everyday and you are still here in this situation.
Despite all this I still had the choice how to respond to the pain. Easier said than done but if you respond to the pain in the wrong way, it makes you weaker, not stronger; allowing the pain to change you for the worse.
But what about the pain that just actually hurts you.. because let’s face it this is part and parcel with a spinal cord injury. Pressure sores, being propelled from my chair countless times, staples in my head, glued eyebrows, black eyes, third degree burns, chronic aching shoulder pain, nails being riped off, adverse drug effects, lumbar puncture, uti’s…I have endured more physical pain than I thought possible in the last six years.
Apparantly, the advantage of life’s pain is the more you experience, the less it throws you off your game. In my opinion, time doesnt heal anything, it just teaches us how to live with pain. Perhaps the greatest faculty our minds possess is the ability to cope with pain.. Some wounds are too deep to heal, or too deep to heal quickly. In addition, many memories are simply painful, and there is no healing to be done. The saying ‘time heals all wounds’ is false. Time heals most wounds. The rest are hidden behind this door.
But I’ve learnt so much through this suffering. Through all I have endured, I continue to learn about myself, about others and about true goodness that exists in this world. Life isn’t easy, but it can be beautiful. That’s one of the gifts this injury has given me, the ability to see beauty despite suffering and pain.